Assalamualaikum
It's me Pear@Zulhakim here writing the dilemma I'm facing rite now. The dreams I possessed somehow had grows further away from me. One by one, my hopes had broken into pieces. Yeah, I faced those disappointment but I accept it with an open heart as I believe everything happened for reasons. If Allah wills it, then it will be. If He's not, then it wouldn't be tho how hard I insists of grabbing and work for it. I had planned my future perfectly, precisely, accurately yet it had been distinguish slowly, deeply. Maybe for Allah, it wasn't the best for me. It would be a super lie if I said I didn't even felt the frustration bout it but there's nothing I can do to change what had been written for me. As the image above, disappointments are just God's way of saying "I've got something better". Maybe what I've planned weren't the best for me or precisely aren't the best for my religion. I believe somethings better are waiting for me ahead tho I don't know what it is or what it will be.
I believe it’s not that everything will be easy or exactly as I had expected, but I must just choose to be grateful for all that I have, and happy that I still got a chance to live this life, no matter how it turns out. Starting from that point of failures, I promise to myself that I won’t let yesterday’s troubles bring me down or allow me to question my ability. I won’t let that life’s little obstacles keep me from trying or become the reason for defeat. I won’t let my fears keep me from dreaming or from chasing my dreams. I won’t give up for any reason because I believe in myself, and in myself, I’ll find the strength.
I won't dwell on the past. My history can't be erased, but my future has yet to be written. I will make the most of what's going to happen instead of worrying about what I can't change. I won't waste my time being sad, because I am wasting away moments in which I could be happy. It's taken me awhile, but I'm learning that letting go of the past is a good thing. It doesn't mean forgetting, it just means moving on. And I can't enjoy the present when I'm still stuck in the past. I won't cry for what might had been, won't live in the past anymore. It was supposed to be forever? Well, forever doesn't always lasts. I will lift my head up and dry my tears and forget about yesterday. I had the time of my life, but I must move on and let it faded away.
I will never ever lose my hopes and dreams. I refuse to. No matter the odds, no matter what happens, it's still my choice, my decision, my power, to hold onto the faith in what I believe to be true. That's the one thing that can never be taken from me unless I allow it. Japan and Todai will always and forever be my aim and goal no matter how many obstacles I might face to reach it. Maybe for the time being, they are not meant for me for some reasons but they will forever be my dreams. I will keep trying, hold on and always, always believe in myself because if it's not me, who will? I realize that Allah allows me to experience the low point of life in order to teach me lessons that I could learn in no other way.
"Have faith and never give up"
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